Stepping into Vision

As I sit down to blog, I'm aware of many different thoughts and experiences . . .

Doing my 9th step (making amends to those I've harmed), and feeling both humble and free, like weights are being lifted. Connecting with people intimately, revealing myself, being vulnerable. Still a few more people left to make amends with; interestingly enough, I feel most afraid of making amends with myself.

Having a sense of being stripped down, like the past, who I've been, how I've been, is gone. Nothing really seems familiar right now. Being born again, reinvented, starting clean and fresh. Cultivating a deeper sense of faith and trust. Not knowing how I was going to pay my rent this month (the first time I've ever been in that position), and coming through today, just in time! The world wide open, endless possibilities. Interesting that all this coincides with the Jewish new year, which is today. At least with doing my steps I'm ahead of the curve of Yom Kippur (atoning for sins), which is coming up towards the end of next week ;)

Feeling bursts of creative energy, feeling more excited, happier, more peaceful. Today, coming across the current issue of "What is Enlightenment?," which is about the direction of men and masculinity, and feeling inspired, connected to a deeper sense of purpose and resonance. I know that this is an essential part of my work, and I've also been noticing it when I work with clients, how energized and excited I feel from our work together.

Not knowing, not needing to know. Listening to guidance. Trusting. Choosing vision over "damage." Choosing to be open, especially when I want to close down. Loving the moment, loving what is. Finding the joy and excitement. These are my current lessons, and they are becoming easier as I practice.